Monday, June 22, 2009

yes, i'm emo.
i'm unhappy.
i'm sad.
i'm stressed.
i'm fustrated.
i'm mentally unstable.

i want to be alone.
i want to choose what i want.
i want to have freedom.
i want to escape.
i want to be alive again.

how much is my tolerance towards this life i'm leading.
can i runaway? to a place that nobody knows me.
who am i. i don't even know what i really wants.
how should i be? what kind of person i am?

those tears that were being held back so hard,
where did they end up to?

i'm sick of what i've been doing now.
someone tell me, what should i do?
where should i go?
what the best for me?

why does it seems that whatever i choose will be wrong.
why it's me. why.

Labels: at the edge

Last Updated @ 4:26 PM

Sunday, June 7, 2009

i'm so BORED.

hais.

i feel like going to taiwan/japan so much. ):
i need a break! i need money!
i need so many things! - -"

ok, bye.

Labels: this is so random

Last Updated @ 1:28 PM

Thursday, May 28, 2009

i feel so unlucky yet not so, today.

its hard to explain. lol.

anyway, it's weird. i'm sososo mentally + physically tired.
but i did not fall asleep on bus back to home. i'm in daze.

my brain could not function much now actually.
just feel like making my fingers to move abit.

my life is all about work.
i used to think that work is boring & should be a totally same daily.
it's like a routine to just go work everyday,
but not a routine for people at there.

people at my work place can change alot just in one day.
it's incredible. many many changes.

i love to hide myself in a corner.
i love freedom, i want to do what i want.
just thought of and found a good place today.
i didn't managed to occupy it, perhaps tomorrow. (:

it's time to sleep, my eyes are half-opened now.

双手紧握拳头张开又留下什麼
敲响命运的钟谁能带走伤痛
活在被拉扯的时空

伤痕就这麼多所以又代表什麼
等待适合的风带我飞越尽头
曾经脆弱独自承受伤痛

曾经爱过以后心痛放手
人总要学会软弱
曾经活著痛著你也能轻松看透

Last Updated @ 12:36 AM

Sunday, May 17, 2009

hmm.
yesterday was a fun day out together with friends,
it has been a very long time ever since we went out like this.
it's kind of unbelievable.
6 years. hope it will still continue.
we even mentioned about marriage time.

last minute of saying can't is not the point.
the point is you actually said you lost my contact.
this is really like what the fuck.
treasure people around you, did i see it wrongly @ your blog.
like please.
maybe i should do that to you one day,
you don't feel sorry at all.
i can sense it. i'm in fact very disappointed in you.
VERY. you still can ask me whether i miss you.
go and die. yes, i'm so angry with you now.
don't ever ask me again.

for the next 2 months i don't wish to see you.
idiot. are you really my friend?
this sucks. & for this moment, i really think you sucks.

Labels: disappointment, randomness

Last Updated @ 6:26 PM

Friday, May 15, 2009

i'm very very unhappy.

i keep having the feeling of crying out.
this sucks.

later i have to rush somemore.
i feel so fucked up.
shit feeling.

i'm so damn depress.

Last Updated @ 2:49 PM

i dislike this feeling.
i feel so lonely.

i feel so helpless.
i feel so moody.
i feel so emo.

Labels: feelings

Last Updated @ 2:06 PM

Thursday, May 14, 2009

it has been a month ever since i last updated blog.
there's so much changes in just one month.

even one day can cause a huge change.
humans are all weird. including myself too.

too weird.
its really tiring to get to know new people, new friends.
its like you have to restart everything.
starting from the most basic, zero, to get to know the person.

& when you thought you have around 50-60% knowledge of that person,
you'd realised, you're actually wrong.
so wrong.
their reaction & action will prove you wrong.

then you will feel so puzzled.
then it struck your mind, ' i actually don't know this person well at all.'

i think humans are really the hardest & most difficult
animal in the world to understand.

人与人之间的相处真的很脆弱.

曾灰心以为我来错了世界
太多想法很另类找不到人了解.

and you may feel really disgusted when you think back
how good you & the person used to be.
the person that used to be so nice & friendly,
now, turned out to be scary & evil.
you may even keep thinking that this person may harm you anytime.

the world goes crazy.

Labels: random thoughts

Last Updated @ 10:05 PM